Depressive Autism. Hope not the sky and the man in the boat

NFT file. Description: The answer to the black square. Psychedelic. Today, on the day this piece was published in ARTHIVE, I have exactly this state of mind. Depression. I came from a shift and found no peace at home. My wife is not satisfied with everything, I give her trouble, chases me out of the house, and I don't know any other place where my home is. I'm terrified, I want to go to war. I have no one to live for. I will endure as long as my soul can. I don't want to live, there's no hope for a change for the better. Alcohol won't help, it'll make it worse.